Another week has started Boys n Girls, and yet I find myself wishing the time away. I can't wait for the 8th to get here, I'm so looking forward to this mini vacation......I need it in a big way, not only do I get to see my son after all this time, I actually get to spend some time away from it all....you never know, I might be on the lookout for another position....we'll just have to see what happens.
You know something? I almost did it today.....I almost said what was really on my mind.....I'm talking about my former co-worker...she really is on my mind alot these days...not sure if it's because I chat with her almost everyday...or.........I dunno.......maybe it's the fact that I can relate to her on more than a few levels....maybe it's because I miss having someone in my life.....I don't know if she has had the same feelings for me or not.....perhaps, and I know I've said it before, maybe I'm better off not knowing......if I did tell her.......it would make things very different between us...not sure I'd want that....besides, maybe I can just have her as a friend.....I dunno....it's all so fucking wierd.....I can pretty well assume that things between Linda and I have cooled......been a few days since we spoke....I just got the impression that she was not interested...oh well.....her loss!
Relationships are one of those things that will always keep me mystified....I mean how is it some work out so well and others just tank?! How is that two people can start off so very well and yet fast forward 10 years and whatever was there is now gone? I have to just shake my head on that one......is there really someone out there for everyone? How do you know if you've found your soulmate? What makes a soulmate? How do you define what characters make up a soulmate? Deep questions that require deep responses.....does anyone have the answers to those and other of life's mysteries? prolly not!
That's all for a while, might be back later!
Ciao for now.
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